My Testimony - Kemi Roberts

I didn’t always know God. In fact, for much of my life, I believed He was cruel. If He was real, why had He let me suffer so much? Why did He let me go through mental, physical, and sexual abuse? Why did He let me grow up feeling unwanted, unloved, and broken?

Pain was all I knew, and I did everything I could to escape it. I started drinking when I was just 11 years old, smoking weed at 13, and by the time I was 21, I was using crystal meth. The high numbed me for a while, but it never lasted. The moment it wore off, the crushing weight of my reality came crashing back down on me.

I wanted out. I wanted the pain to end. I attempted suicide multiple times, convinced that there was nothing left for me in this life. And if God existed, He certainly didn’t care about me.

But then, one day, in my darkest moment, I called out to Him. Maybe I didn’t even fully believe He was listening, but with what little strength I had left, I cried out for help. And that’s when I heard it—clear as day:

"YOU'RE DONE. COME HOME."

In that moment, something inside me shifted. I knew without a doubt that it was Him. God had never abandoned me. He had been there through every tear, every heartbreak, every mistake. He had been waiting for me, loving me even when I hated Him.

That day, I surrendered. I walked away from the drugs, the pain, and the lies I had believed for so long. I came home—not to a place, but to a Person. To Jesus, my Savior. The One who had been calling me all along.

Through Him, I learned what true love really is. It’s not found in the things of this world, not in addictions, not in people who hurt and betray. True love is found in Christ alone.

If you are reading this and feel lost, broken, or too far gone—I want you to know something. You are never too broken for God. You are never too lost for Him to find you. He loves you, right now, exactly as you are.

Surrender your pain to Him. Cry out to Him. Let Him show you the love that never fails, the love that never leaves. Because if He could rescue me, I promise—He can rescue you too.